Cpa at last. Yesterday, I was so ecstatic about it...wanna tell the whole world that I passed and I made it.  Today, I'm just tired and I wanna rest.  Tomorrow, I'll have to think about work. I passed but then so what.. life doesnt end there. It's the same vicious cycle of having a goal, struggling to reach that goal, reaching that goal, and then aiming for something else. But needless to say, I am happy. I am grateful...really grateful to a lot of people; my mom and dad who gave me the reason to really wanna pass that darned exam; my sister who taught me lessons I have long forgotten about; my brother who constantly tells me, in the cheesiest way imaginable (erkkk) that I can do it; my friends who remind me everytime that I  am smart (heck, I am. hahaha. pardon me, but I was told that once you pass the exam, you earn the license to boast. lol); and paw2x of course, who never doubted my abilities, not for a second. But if there's one soul out there who deserve my sincere and utmost gratitude, it's my Creator, of course...He who decides our fate.

I hoped to pass but wasn't counting on it. I guess that's what people referred to as "hoping for the best while preparing for the worst." But I must say, no amount of preparation could stop your tears from falling if you failed. I should know. I've been there. I've done that. And it almost felt like hell rose and ate me whole. Lol.

I dreamt about that day for 6 months. I imagined what I was going to do upon hearing the good news. But yesterday,  irony upon irony, i cried. I cried while going down the escalator at SM. I cried because I was horrified by the fact that I needed to enroll for a refresher course..that and the fact that my dad would be gravely disapppointed. I thought I didnt pass. I was told I didnt pass. But they were wrong. Dead wrong. Thanks she and dave for telling me otherwise. Lol. But it was really difficult to be happy for myself because I was saddened by the fact that not all of my friends passed. I wanna tell them it's okay but I should know that it isn't.

The most important preparation in any exam, I guess, is one's faith...prayers, prayers and if you could stilll manage it, more prayers. Hehe...  Because if God  gets bored with hearing the same petition for 6 months, surely, He'd make your wish happen. No doubt about that. But  if He doesnt, then maybe you did not pray hard enough, or you did not tell Him that you want it so bad. Or perhaps, He's postponing your happiness for another six months. Like they always say, it's all in God's time.

It's funny because I stil feel that I didnt deserve to pass. I know I did not study as hard as everyone did. I took the exam without reviewing for two subjects. But I believed I would pass although I kept that to myself. And like what Dave concluded last night, optimism helps.  It helps an awful lot. Of course nothing beats effort. Optimism sans effort and prayers is pointless.

I wanna say kudos to the new CPAs. Great opportunities await you...and me. Hehe... And to my friends who have yet to take the exam, remember that it's all in God's time. I'll be scanning picpa.com.ph for your names this October. :)

Meanwhile, cheers!

P.S. I need a job. Lol. :)